pent up frustration

I've always had a problem when it comes down to Justin, me, Sheldon, and their Dad.  When they where in Shafter, not so much their dad as it was Sheldon. When they moved into the same town as us, I felt I was second in line behind them. We would have fights often because of it.  When they moved to Taft the fights decreased so much, then they moved to Lake Elsinore we were happy. Except when he was out of work for the two years and my family got on his last nerve. I had his back, I agreed with him, I was going to leave when Justin and my Dad had got into it, because I had Justin's back.

Now Sheldon and their Dad is living with us. Which was suppose to only be temporary. Now they want to move in with us when we buy a home. I do not think so.  Justin and I have been fighting off and on since Sheldon moved in, then their dad moved in and that's all we seem to do a lot more then not.

I hate the fact Sheldon brings booze into the home so often. I hate the fact Justin drinks more now, because Sheldon is here. Justin and I hardly have any alone time between Wess (which is to be expected) and his brother and dad. Johns snark comments towards me and Wess are uncalled for. I get mad at anyone that does them and I tell them. But I can't do it to John? They have very little respect. I know John doesn't like how I take care of Wess because I sleep some days til 1pm well if I didn't have to take Sheldon to work at 3am I would be up earlier.

Sheldon has been told time and time again to do certain things and still doesn't do them. work clothes are not to be in the house or on the furniture , do not invite people my parents do not know over, this means they can't stop by to say hi, or to pick you up,  to not leave hot sauce on the counter (when I find it I throw it away now), to clean up after a shower.

John my beef is that, he drinks damn near all day, cleans up after Sheldon, drops ib's, and snarky remarks.

They both expect to eat what's in the fridge or in the pantry, but do not contribute to food expense, nor do they offer, they expect to go on family trips with Justin, Wess and I. When Justin isn't home for dinner time they do not wish to eat in the kitchen with me and Wess, but when Justin is home for dinner, lunch, breakfast you name it they all huddle in the kitchen like vultures.

And yes I looked it up one ib of 200mg won't kill Wess, but that still doesn't mean it's not a chocking hazard, or any less dis respectful and careless to just drop flippin' ib's or any pill for that matter.

Once Sheldon's truck is fixed I want him to save like there is no tomorrow and move them out by the end of this year. I can't take anymore stress from them living here. It's not only stressful on me, the rest of the household, but it's stressful on our relationship. I'm tired of fighting, of the arguments, and  i feel, double standards.

Yes, you did talk to your dad about the pill. But the way you just brushed it off and let it go like I got the feeling you were conveying your body language and tone as "she's mad, I need to talk to you.. so here goes" that's how you came across to me. I just feel alone when it's between your family and our family.

I don't know what to do to make you fully understand where I am trying to come from or how I feel. You didn't understand how I felt about being second fiddle til you felt that way. Oh and don't think Mom and Dad are innocent in this ordeal. Half the shit they do, have done, or what have you we had got our butts chewed over, they don't to them in fear you'll get mad at them for saying something, because I have asked them why don't they say anything.

Before I forget when I leave my mouthwash on the counter it gets used, same with toothpaste, anything in the shower when he (Sheldon) runs out. I keep my mouthwash and toothpaste hid now. And your dad supplies Sheldon's cleaning products. Oh and he has helped himself to my hairspray on numerous occasions.  

Toilet paper, we pay for all that now, Sheldon can use up to two rolls a day on weekends. How do I know this Well I put x amount out and when he's home on weekends vs the amount used on weekends when he's off couch hopping all weekend long. Laundry soap, John expects to use the soap never once asked to buy any, so I first stopped buying the good stuff bought the cheap crap, didn't like it so I left that bottle out for him to use and bought a small bottle to do us the month and hid that as well. Now Mom and Heather are both saying their soap is disappearing faster than before. And Heather uses special hypoallergenic soap.

Wess' toys, I had organized and such, John says now if he'll learn to pick them up. All I could think geez you're one to talk old man. Sheldon is how old and Wess is how old and you still have to pick up, get him things, and buy him items, and you want my 4 year old to pick up after himself when your 24 year old can't. All I said in reply was maybe when Sheldon does. That's another thing his toys, instead of stepping on them before I picked them all up, they could have moved them all up against the dresser under the tv, no they had to step on them break them and complain on falling down on them.  I use to clean up his toys every night before I would go to bed after I laid him down for the night. I can't do that anymore. When I did pick up all his toys I found dirty clothes that wasn't Wess', they were Sheldon's, I found cans not Wess' he can't drink energy drinks or beer. I found snack bags, trash, bowls, a plate, mind you these items are not Wess' he has his own special bowls and plates. The xbox 360 had sat on the toybox over a month even after both Justin and I had told him if Wess mess' that up you are responsible for it, he never once tried to move it out of reach. He has been told about DVD's and Games, he still leaves them in Wess' reach, ie on the toybox or on the side table.

The newest thing that makes me mad. Is he doesn't wish to finish his truck that dad and mom have fought over soooo much about. he wants to get rid of it and try for something else, that may or may not flippin work. Which he would have to save for, instead of just dumping 400 bucks more into this already 2600 project. He thinks I have nothing better to do than to drive his ass to and from work, and around town?  I am just the sister in law I am not anything else. Hell I have a problem taking my own damn sister to do arrears for her.  He just doesn't get everything doesn't revolve around him, that Dad had put alot of work into that damn truck, that me taking him to work has depleted my cars value and have put sooo many miles on it. My oil changes are monthly. Tires are not cheap, nor is gas and all he has to pay is half the trip. He has not had to grow up and when times do call for him to man up he bitchs about it or drops it as he would say with the quickness. He expects for everyone to do or pay for everything that doesn't involve pussy, booze, or some sort of his idea of a good time.

And I no longer think he has a commitment issue I just think he just doesn't want to man the flipp up and take on reality as in what a real man has to do when it gets serious.  He is all about himself and that's it.

 That's it I'm getting tired, I will just start keeping all my frustrations here on blogger it helps. There is no arguments, or negative vibes going out to others, just me and thats it.